Colours Of Life

a visit to this page after a long time made me realize the magnitude of changes in my thinking patter. i have learnt to see life in a different perspective. maybe i wouldn't have written the things you are currently seeing if i were like this back then. but change is the only constant in life. maybe i wouldn't write the way am writing now in the future. we are continuously in the process of evolving. i have heard many authors telling that they feel embarrassed when they read their own books after many years. even i have come across that situation. we learn a new lesson in life everyday. we mature more and more as we proceed with life. but that doesn't mean that we were immature before. i would tell that we were mature at that moment and we were quite happy about it. the main trick lies in getting the best out of you at that moment. as long as you give out your best, you wouldn't feel embarrassed about your past.we were at our level best at that moment.you couldn't have expected more from you at that point of time. its our experiences which shape our thinking. so there is nothing to blame or to feel embarrassed about its just our state of mind which makes us feel that way.
i would like to that all the people who used to follow my blog regularly when it was active.
i was shocked when i visited this blog today as my chrome browser refused to open the page citing some malware infection from a random blog page which i have never heard before. i tried deleting all the gadgets i had installed but am not able to figure out the problem. i promise to soon get rid of the malware ASAP!...
meanwhile i will be launching a new blog whose link i will be sharing with you soon.
so until then cheers!...

Eshwar B

"Tommy had dedicated his life to Gina....
When Gina life him he was so obsessed with Gina that he could not think of anything other than her smile....

He was so obsessed with her that..... he even forgot himself..."

Why are you born alone?!.... of course I'm not talking about twins.... Its because we are designated to live our life alone....
You may argue that men are social creatures who live in a society.... I do agree but in-spite of living with others you are definitely alone unless you consider the company of your soul....
I have seen many people hating themselves for not being able to match the cleverness of their friends or the style quotient of their role models... but is style everything in life?!....
If yes, then Justin Bieber would be having more fans than haters!!.....
the way he carries himself did not impress millions of people who started hating him and not the forget the attention he received for his voice in a short period of time which people did not like. just imagine you hate a political or cine figure. if that personality gets more positive media attention everyday, you hated will only increase.
why people love others more than themselves?!.... is it because their soul is not worth being loved more than others?!.... or its the peer pressure which is misplacing their preference?!.... the real reason cannot be ascertained. they can only be felt in a language which cannot be expressed. even if you try to express them, by they time those thoughts reach your lips or fingers, 50% of the data stored in your temporary memory disk would have been deleted.

"DEPRESSION"

what does this word indicate?!...
it varies from person to person... but if you go by the symptoms, the following can be termed as the most common....
you are deemed to be in depression when ::

You are doing things much slower than usual.
You are bothered by things that usually don't bother you.
You have had periods of feeling low that last for at least several hours.
You've had trouble concentrating.
Things that used to be interesting to you are no longer interesting.

Your energy level has been low.
Your future has seemed hopeless.
You have been preoccupied with death, dying, or suicide.
You feel like you've lost some confidence.
You are easily irritated.

You are afraid that something bad is going to happen to you.
You've been sleeping a lot more or less than usual.
You have lost or gained five pounds.
It is difficult for you to make decisions.
You feel like no one likes you anymore.

You have aches or pains that can't be explained.
You have been avoiding your friends.
You feel like you have nothing to live for.
Nothing seems important to you.
It takes a lot of effort to do the most simple of tasks.
You feel sad or blue.
You feel trapped in your own life.
You feel like a failure.

You feel more dead than alive.
You feel depressed, even if something good happens.

if it that people cannot come over these?!... NO.. depressed people don't wish to come over these as they feel comfortable in a depressed state.... people like to cry, they like to feel sad... they like to say that the world is a bad place to live in.
You cant expect them to say 'i love this world' when they haven't seen that 'love' for a long time.... Its impossible for them to analyse the reason for their depression as analyzing them will only lead their mind to think more of the stuff which depressed them leading to more trouble... we find self styled counselors graduated from institutes having mandatory attendance of 35% providing 100% placements in reputed places. even if you attend 100% of the class [if it happened] its impossible to understand the human psyche unless you are really interested in it and your passing for psychology is outstanding and undetermined. you must be driven by passion and not profession. great people like Vivekananda and other saints preached more to this field than what they learnt from here. i know its impossible to find such a person to deal your problem with but its always advisable to avoid dealing with fancy looking psychologists who make you bite your nails and.... pockets...!!....
its more advisable to look for refuge in spiritual comfort as it connects you with your soul. spirituality influences you to love god more than fellow human beings. in other words spirituality influences you to love you soul more than other humans!!.... even in Hinduism 'paramatma' or 'supreme soul' is considered to be the greatest!!.... so its our soul which is the greatest.... so in simpler terms we must learn to connect with our soul and spirituality is just a mode of connection between you and your soul....
its very difficult to deceive your soul.... maybe impossible to do so... and that's the reason many people cant stand at the thought of spirituality. the first thing you when you become spiritual is the process of questioning your deeds. this is the point when you start feeling guilty. few people cannot handle the guilt, so they repel at the thought of god, soul or the whole concept of spirituality!!.....
investing more time in this topic/above case could mean more research work and the whole topic could change.... and maybe this post could become a book.

trying to control the size of this post, i would like to touch the last and the most important topic....

The concept of human love....
Humans are equipped with a fickle mind [ though i must agree that the percentage of fickleness could vary from person to person ; continent to continent] the one that considers you as friend could consider you as his/her enemy for no wrong of yours. but your soul can never do that!!.... your loved ones may break up from you but its impossible for you to break-up from yourself!!.... as i have heard in many places, nothing is permanent, everything is perishable so the noble ones advise you not to have any material attachment at all but we are humans and we cannot do that!!.... can you tell me what is life without depression, sadness, difficulty and struggle!? can you realize what is happiness without experiencing sadness?!.... No!!... to enjoy your life you must agree to share its troubles too!!.... but its upto to avoid dwelling on the darker part for too long which could reduce your happy times!!.... this concept is not skin deep and i could write a lot about this and its impossible to cover the whole idea of this concept without writing too much in detail..!! its also important to state that your family would stand by you until you are within the limits of your failure and you should remember to stand by your family when you cross the limit of your success!!....
but family is certainly more reliable than others and at few places you can be guaranteed of their support during the bad times. the things i am talking about relates more to the loved ones outside the circle of your family [ of course, i wound never include relatives, who are supposed to be even more fickle minded than your friends and neighbors!!...] the family-love is certainly different from what i am talking about and is more complex but i am mentioning about it to avoid confusion or a clash between these two topics!!....
When it comes to love its better not to rely on anyone completely and think of someone as yours forever unless there is a bond which specifies so!!... when you cannot control your own mind, its impossible to even think of controlling others' mind. they can change their mind at will and you shouldn't become a slave to it.... always think of your mind independently and by doing so you can minimize the impact on your heart the after effects of a love failure or even the loss of a job!!..... you don't run looking for others company when you can realize the importance of your own company!!.... so remember that you must never hate yourself as its only your soul which stands by you till the end of your days. its your own self which takes receives the blows you earn and do respect yourself for the standing by you all the time!!.... and when you win something you are going to reward yourself with the title. in simpler terms, i can say that you are made for yourself!!.... so love yourself, then you can love the world....

:-) :-) smile for youself :-) :-)
then smile for the world....