"I didn't do any thing when the situation was under my control
I couldn't do anything when the situation was out of my control''
But if the same situation arises again, i don't know whether i would keep it under my control. We realize the importance of thing only after it goes out of our reach. If the same thing comes back to us, though we may give more importance to it, its unlikely that we would act very differently.
During my crucial exams i always thought that there were many days to prepare. of course, the days ran like swiftly like a stream without letting us notice it. depressed was the only word that could describe me after the results emerged. ' i could have worked hard ', 'i could have read from day 1', i could have.....' ran in my mind. but when my mom told me that i things could worsen if i did not study and warned me of low marks, i never bothered. but i never wronged myself. because accepting the blame would make me guilty, and i never wished to be guilty!!.....
But my non acceptance of my mistakes wouldn't give me a clean chit. my conscience knows very well that i had 100% control over my time and my dedication of time to studies was purely at my own will. i know that
I didn't do any thing when the situation was under my control
I couldn't do anything when the situation was out of my control. i can put the blame on cricket world cup which made me sit in front of the TV but i preferred to blame my interest in cricket. if i there was no cricket or if i had chosen not to watch cricket, i could have got one of the highest marks. but that doesn't matter!!.... the words 'could have' doesn't matter.... because the words ' i did not' has more significance......
blaze
I couldn't do anything when the situation was out of my control''
But if the same situation arises again, i don't know whether i would keep it under my control. We realize the importance of thing only after it goes out of our reach. If the same thing comes back to us, though we may give more importance to it, its unlikely that we would act very differently.
During my crucial exams i always thought that there were many days to prepare. of course, the days ran like swiftly like a stream without letting us notice it. depressed was the only word that could describe me after the results emerged. ' i could have worked hard ', 'i could have read from day 1', i could have.....' ran in my mind. but when my mom told me that i things could worsen if i did not study and warned me of low marks, i never bothered. but i never wronged myself. because accepting the blame would make me guilty, and i never wished to be guilty!!.....
But my non acceptance of my mistakes wouldn't give me a clean chit. my conscience knows very well that i had 100% control over my time and my dedication of time to studies was purely at my own will. i know that
I didn't do any thing when the situation was under my control
I couldn't do anything when the situation was out of my control. i can put the blame on cricket world cup which made me sit in front of the TV but i preferred to blame my interest in cricket. if i there was no cricket or if i had chosen not to watch cricket, i could have got one of the highest marks. but that doesn't matter!!.... the words 'could have' doesn't matter.... because the words ' i did not' has more significance......
blaze
Very nice. even I ended my exams recently and I am also going to write something like this. It is surprising to read something which I was just about to write.
ReplyDeleteoh thanks..... nice to know that most of the students go through the same kind of experience.... !!
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